Fine. You win.

I am not a competitive person.   I've decided that's why I don't like playing games.  (To Carey's great disappointment.)   And it's not just that I'm not competitive against other people.. I'm not even competitive against myself.   I see competitiveness in someone and think "No that's ok.   You win."   I see it as a complete waste of energy.  Not that I'm right. I'm just being honest here.

So here's the problem.  I need to lose weight. You see, I just had a baby and I also just happen to love donuts.   And for the first time in my life I wish I was competitive.  I hear people talking about losing weight by making it a competition either with their own self or with their spouse or a friend.   The only time that I ever lost a noticeable amount of weight was back in high school. I signed up for a gym class that I thought would be a free be?.....  freeby?....  free b?....  an easy A and would you believe the teacher actually expected me to do something?!  Honestly, I was shocked. The point is, the only time I've ever lost weight is when I was forced to participate in physical activity.  I try to do it on my own and I give up after a few months of half hearted attempts with no noticeable difference.   I went to a personal trainer.  No results and a lot of wasted money.   ...Ok maybe minimal results.     I even tried to exercise with Lindsay a while back.   We walked and then wound up at my house eating homemade chocolate chip cookie dough.

I think I have issues with sugar.   And laziness.

So now I'm thinking of trying weight watchers.  Carey might even go with me.  Maybe if we're both doing this thing I'll actually stick to it.   Maybe I'll even find a little bit of competitiveness way deep, deep down inside me.  Maybe I'll wake up one day and completely hate the sight of cookies.

I'm not gonna hold my breath.   Let's be real here.

P.S.  It's freebie.   I googled it.