This is the one song we played at Tobi's funeral. The Lord had played it over and over in my head and I listened to it probably a hundred times through the 3 months leading up to Tobi's death. I thought it was a message I was to have to encourage those around me. I had no idea He wanted me to memorize it because it was the message He would use to give us the grace to bless His name at the funeral of our daughter.
"It wasn't meaningless". How many times did He say that to me while I lay in the bed waiting to go in for surgery to deliver the lifeless girlie I had made so many plans for? How many times has He reassured me since then?
"Though You take from me, I will bless Your name". I remember admitting to the Lord about a month before she died that I didn't know if I would be able to say that if He took from me someone I love. And now He has helped me to understand that I was right. I was never capable of saying that. When You are broken and You surrender to His will, the Victor and the King is able to say things through you that you listen to yourself saying and wonder at His power and strength.
"Therefore, therefore, do not lose heart. But take these truths and day by day focus on them. Preach them to yourself every morning. Get alone with God and preach His word into your mind until your heart SINGS with confidence that you are new and cared for."
I can now encourage you from a heart of experience that I have found this to be true. Do not lose heart. Get alone with God everyday and preach His word into your mind and heart. Let the Holy Spirit be your comforter and friend. When you are angry, discouraged, afraid or confused ask Him to preach His word to you. And before long your heart will SING with confidence that He has made you new and that He cares for you in ways our little minds can't fathom. And because He remembers that we are dust, He will show you how He cares for you in ways that are small enough for you to understand but that will make you feel as if your whole being will explode with joy from the knowledge of it.
Tobi would have been two months in a few days, Lord. I sing my song to You - the One who's all I need.
I trust You.
